Ryan David Orr

kopascetic

by Ryan David Orr

Released 06/13/2016
Maiden Druther
Released 06/13/2016
Maiden Druther
Now available in CD and 12" vinyl format!
  • 03:19 Download Lyrics
    Traffic Lights

    And again she shows up, later than she thought she would, knocking reticently soft.

    As she speaks she is trying not to cry and I help her as she's taking her coat off

    "Nothing is beautiful," she said, "and no one is ever who they seem. I drove around this town for hours, screaming curses at the road, but it's 10 o'clock and the church is closed, and I stopped and sat amongst the flowers."

    And I don't give a damn if they call the cops;

    They never do anything anywhere anyway.

    I try to stay on a straight line home.

    She said, "Do you want to touch me? You want to be close? You want to feel something that seems real? Well I just want to feel whole; I want to be golden. I should go."

    It's alright. I'll walk home tonight. Gonna skip all the traffic lights.

    And again I show up drunk and stumbling, and make my way to the front door.

    I have always loved more than I have ever shown with my hands and I can't give her what she asked for.

    But she humors me and lets me in. I said, "I don't know where I've been. I wandered up and down the highway. I stopped at that store across the Deuce and bought some cigarettes and booze and the clerk was staring at me sideways."

    And I don't give a damn if they call the cops.

    They never do anything anywhere anyway.

    I try to stay on a straight line home.

    I said, "Do you want to touch me? You want to be close? You want to feel something that seems real? Well, I just want to feel whole. I want to be golden. I should go."

    It's alright. I'll walk home tonight. Gonna skip all the traffic lights.

  • 04:03 Lyrics
    Mississippi

    I took a closer look and I could not find them. Mississippi delta in late July and

    Angela was certainly not the first one. This is not a date if you won't take my hand.

    Somebody remembered the holes in the ozone. Took a bag of clothes and a hand full of NoDoze.

    I never went to sleep, but I don't mind dreaming.

    This is just a shot, sugar, so don't you put your money on me. This is just a shot, sugar, so don't you worry 'bout it no more.

    Seventeen bails of backlog levis, bundled up snug in a mess of hair ties.

    The sweetest of the children here grew up angry.

    This is just a shot, sugar, so don't you put your money on me. This is just a shot, sugar, so don't you worry 'bout it no more.

    Heaven wasn't close enough; I had to pull the clouds right down.

  • 03:13 Lyrics
    Fleeting Heart

    Blessed be, Cornelia, all of the beauty's not gone from the world.

    All these weeping boys and girls in their fragile little worlds.

    The ugly shell still hides a pearl.

    And we cannot be reckless and also give in. Mother, we're animals.

    Casting off our only virtue, when we think we wouldn't hurt you.

    And become all the things that we ought not revert to

    and on some sacred spectacular day when no one says anything,

    we'll recall why we were silent, finding calm within the violence and a place to hide our anger.

    And if they ask you to be honest, will you pretend you'd never lie? Would you unravel right before their very eyes? There is a sweetness in the longing, something so mournful there in love, and it's the fleeting heart you're always dreaming of.

    You open this letter last, just before bed, every day for fifteen years.

    But with no remaining tears, and you still can strain to hear

    his voice as your train disappeared.

    And the station stopped humming with casual talk and the world was as it had been:

    full of enemies and friends, full of cold indifference, full of saints that grew up sinners.

    And if they ask you to be honest, will you pretend you'd never lie? Would you unravel right before their very eyes? There is a sweetness in the longing, something so mournful there in love, and it's the fleeting heart you're always dreaming of.

  • 02:27 Lyrics
    Sleepy Bougainvillea

    Did you want to ask me something?

    Did you want to say your part?

    Did you have some realization?

    Is it too long far apart?

    This is only sounding good 'cause I've been drinking; this is only new 'cause I've been lost. This is only real 'cause I've been thinking, seeking joy whatever my joy may cost.

    Lady on this alter, where is your room?

    Are there those who might oblige your glorious gloom?

    I don't want to tell you that I can't take this; I don't want to see you turn away. I don't want to feel alone and foolish wondering what I could do to make you stay.

    Near a sleepy bougainvillea, wrapped in linen and silk,

    She is disappearing endlessly and calling me still.

    Left between your heart and something secret; choosing when to hear you laughing at me; I resolve to never ever need this. The truth is, I must walk away and let this be.

    (I don't need this more than I can struggle to be free of wanting you)

  • 03:34
    On a Day in the Life of a Man Who Dreams
  • Lyrics Breaker

    Straight down the rain will fall to soak your woolen, winter shall. Through the door and down the hall I'm all alone, all alone and dry.

    I missed out. The afternoon was bored with me and gone too soon. Don't you shout at me, dear moon. I know not why we cry. I know not why we cry.

    The lost now stand around and blame, pointing fingers and cursing names, crippled by their fear and shame with no idea why. No idea why.

    I learned best from mistakes I made. Perfect people will never change. You can't see inside my brain and you don't know what I've felt. Go be perfect somewhere else.

    Somewhere out beyond the breaker, she struggles with her maker, and all of the waves lay down.

    I would've said words that you never even heard, that you never even knew you deserved.

    Somewhere out beyond the breaker, she struggles with her maker, and all of the waves lay down.

  • 04:14 Lyrics
    How Strong Can You Be

    So when they get sick of you calling, and they just don't care if you're falling fast.

    When all of those eyes are on you and the weight of it rests upon your back.

    You slam the door hard as you run to your car and collapse.

    And you never go fast enough to leave what has passed you in the past.

    And they're pointing their fingers and rolling their eyes, making your struggle seem trite. Gushing with laughter and eloquent sighs; you don't want to break but you might.

    And you won't let them in, and you won't let them see. Well, then how strong can you be?

    When you look upon all your devices and you stop telling lies are you twice as scared?

    'Cause everyone's sure they're honest and everyone's certain they're aware.

    As they stumble and stagger like blind drunken fools down the stairs,

    Waking up all of the neighbors and shouting about their selfish cares.

    And they're pointing their fingers and rolling their eyes, making your struggle seem trite. Gushing with laughter and eloquent sighs; you don't want to break but you might.

    And you won't let them in, and you won't let them see these moments when there's not a thing to believe in and all your decision are thrown in your face and everything's scattered and it seems out of place. And the only light visible is hazily streaming through cracks in the walls that you made.

    And you won't let them in, and you won't let them see. Well, then how strong can you be?

  • 05:08 Lyrics
    Recognize You

    Howl loud and they'll know it's you. Screamin' 'bout all your bedroom blues with your curtains down, waking up the whole town.

    Give her one kiss for the trouble now, two to keep her close enough to wonder: is it a blunder? A thousand bolts of lightning with no thunder.

    But quit your crying, now. You will not escape this noise. Ruining all the sentimental, sad, and silly boys.

    We built this city on rock n' roll and we never explain our lies. We fool ourselves about ourselves and can't look you in the eyes.

    And you stand up, holding your hands up and throwing your voice, and no one can remember your name. You just laugh when your nervous 'cause they're all annoyed. And you can't remember why came. Just put on your mask and your elegant garments so that you won't recognize you. You won't recognize you any more than we do.

    Turn around and get out of here. We don't owe you a god damn thing so just disappear. It's clear that you're not listening.

    You seem bolder than you need to be with the hair up on your back. Fighting to be bigger than all the qualities you lack.

    Well, yes, we've all seen better days, we've all seen better days. Ruining all your sentimental, sad, and silly ways.

    But then, low and behold, the front's not old; a shiny new façade. All these scattered ants and animals all trying to be God.

    And you stand up, holding your hands up and throwing your voice, and no one can remember your name. You just laugh when your nervous 'cause they're all annoyed. And you can't remember why came. Just put on your mask and your elegant garments so that you won't recognize you. You won't recognize you.

    This stripped down notion, like an opening hand that begs "More, more, more, I need all you can handle". With your big mouth flapping out your terrible plan to be the best thing that ever ever ever ever happened...

    And you stand up, holding your hands up and throwing your voice, and no one can remember your name. You just laugh when your nervous 'cause they're all annoyed. And you can't remember why came. Just put on your mask and your elegant garments so that you won't recognize you. You won't recognize you.

  • Jagged Edge
  • Miss Lorie
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For My Mother, Who Truly Loved The World

by Ryan David Orr

Released 02/26/2015
Released 02/26/2015
Dedicated to my late mother, Dr. Teresa Dismuke.

More Than Strangers

by Ryan David Orr

Released 06/13/2013
Maiden Druther (self-released)
Released 06/13/2013
Maiden Druther (self-released)
This album has elements of folk, rock, pop, blues, and alternative. Features fan favorites "Margaret", "Selfishly", "5 More Days", and "Ariel in Graylight, Stormy". This album is available in CD format or in high-quality MP3 format
  • 04:13 Lyrics
    Selfishly

    V1

    Let me start by saying you were always everything to me,

    So it doesn’t seem strange if I change your name like in a dream.

    I believed there was someone else like you that I could find,

    But many years later, although I’ve tried, you’re all that’s on my mind.

    You’re all that’s on my mind.

     

    V2

    I remember when you lied to your mother and you said you’d be home soon;

    The soft touch of your fingers on my arm under the moon;

    And in the corner of the funeral home, where the coach sat crying ‘cause our boy was gone

    His picture was pasted all over a poster board and I couldn’t hold your hand.

    You wouldn’t understand

     

    Ch

    If I could make this last for good, I would cling to you selfishly.

    And you would know me like you should, and how I want to be.

     

    V3

    My house sat on a country road near a little trail through the trees.

    I could walk it in the middle of the winter when the wind shook out the leaves.

    Meet me over by the telephone lines and sell me on your dreams.

    And I will call you “Angel” in a language only seen.

    But you’ll know what I mean.

     

    Ch

    If I could make this last for good, I would cling to you selfishly.

    And you would know me like you should, and how I want to be.

     

    Br

    We fall down to learn to stand up taller;

    We love so big, all the world seems smaller.

    Sweet girl, I never meant to be less than what you needed me to be.

     

    Ch

    If I could make this last for good, I would cling to you selfishly.

    And you would know me like you should, and how I want to be.

  • 04:45 Download Story Lyrics
    Margaret

    Margaret

     

    This stuff is so easy, isn’t it, Margaret?

    But you might just disappear

    Like you were never even here.

    And they might not let you dream.

    Like a headline printed in a magazine,

    You read just like they wanted you to read.

     

    And I had a lover like them, too.

    So innocently cruel.

    They climb inside of you,

    And they never set you free.

    And you’re not a lot like me,

    Or I’m not a lot like you,

    But either way it’s true.

     

    Listen...outside

    Hear them calling your name?

    Patience...it’s alright

    We’re so glad that you came.

    Stand up, deep breath,

    You’ll be wonderful

    The curtain is open...

     

    They got together on Christmas didn’t they, Margaret?

    Like I can still recall.

    All the kid voices down the hall,

    And the clatter of the toys.

    It was easier for boys

    To shut out all the noise,

    We’re not supposed to show anything at all.

     

    And our fathers long before us knew

    The bitterness of youth

    And how to make it through

    When everyone was gone.

    Without our weapons drawn,

    When we can’t stand up strong,

    We smile and play along.

     

    Listen...outside

    Hear them calling your name?

    Patience...it’s alright

    We’re so glad that you came.

    Stand up, deep breath,

    You’ll be wonderful

    The curtain is open...

    Soldier...dreamer

    Did you mean to be free?

    Waiting...hoping

    That the world would see.

    Head up, calm down,

    You’ll be wonderful

    The curtain is open.

  • 03:35 Lyrics
    Lucky Is Enough

    Lucky is Enough

    Sophie slips a letter through the ceiling vent heater,

    And she never can remember to close with her name.

    She looks down from a window up above the bold cathedral,

    And a part of her is feeble and the rest of her is lame.

     

    I’ll wish you luck if just lucky is enough,

    But shouldn’t you be drinking from a stronger man’s cup?

    Forever yours truly and with all of my love,

    Just lock your doors.

     

    She couldn’t wake the neighbors with the voice that they gave her,

    She would want someone to save her but she’d never impose.

    I must have seemed embarrassed when she startled my awareness,

    From below her staring, careless as she put on her clothes.

     

    I’ll wish you luck if just lucky is enough,

    But shouldn’t you be drinking from a stronger man’s cup?

    Forever yours truly and with all of my love,

    Who are we fooling?

     

    Sophie plays a game with paper scraps and bits of plastic,

    And she swears she doesn’t practice, but she wins every time.

    And I don’t know the object, and I think I’m just her project,

    Because a part of me is suspect and the rest of me is lying.

     

    I’ll wish you luck if just lucky is enough,

    But shouldn’t you be drinking from a stronger man’s cup?

    Forever yours truly and with all of my love,

    They’re vicious when you’re weak, but they’re worse if you’re tough.

    So give me your hand and let this be enough.

    Ain’t we just lucky?

     

  • 03:02 Lyrics
    5 More Days

    5 more days of rain, she said, it’s almost getting clear.

    This won’t hurt that bad she said, there’s nothing quite as near.

    5 more days and ways to lay yourself inside and die,

    And I don’t care...there’s 5 more days

     

    5 more days of rain, she said, it’s almost time.

    I don’t have to wait she said, it’s only in my mind.

    Blinding us to everything and teaching us to fight,

    It seemed so right...and there’s 5 more days.

     

    Speak softly now, she’s waking up.

    It’s times like this that I’m losing sleep.

    Speak gently now, she’s fragile, and I don’t know if I’m too loud.

     

    5 more days of rain, she said, I’ve had enough of this.

    I’ll be gone before you know it, there ain’t no one here I’m gonna miss.

    For all the people I have know and for everyone that stayed I have lost my way

    And there’s 5 more days.

     

    Speak softly now, she’s waking up.

    It’s times like this that I’m losing sleep.

    Speak gently now, she’s fragile, and I don’t know if I’m too loud.

    Speak softly now, she’s waking up.

    It’s times like this that I’m losing sleep.

    Speak gently now, she’s fragile, and I don’t know if I’m too loud.

  • 04:41 Download Lyrics
    Ariel in Graylight, Stormy

    Ariel in Graylight, Stormy

    Had to be enough for the tympani call;

    Had to be on two different rivaling walls;

    Had to be the father with all of his bulls;

    Had to be the mother in shame from the fall;

    After you checked and nobody was home,

    In between hating and loving the world;

    How to be a woman and still be a girl.

    How to pretend you don’t need to be told,

    And to be told.

     

    Sister was shaking a dagger;

    Sister put cracks in the window;

    Left all the cash on the table;

    Nothing is said that you don’t know;

    Didn’t they promise you freedom

    From the very first time you could listen?

    They tricked you and held their position.

     

    Ariel in graylight, stormy,

    We missed you in the list of the chosen.

    They said it before, they’ll say it again:

    Some of us were made more fortunate people,

    And nothing anywhere is easy.

     

    Do you believe you could make it

    Without anyone to be there when you fake it?

    When you attempt to not fade like a flame;

    Judges are wanting of only a name.

    Out of the corners we shutter and rise,

    Into the indifferent contempt of the sky,

    Into the malice of never and why.

    They told me the same thing they told you, it wasn’t a lie.

     

    Ariel in graylight, stormy,

    We missed you in the list of the chosen.

    They said it before, they’ll say it again:

    Some of us were made more fortunate people,

    And nothing anywhere...

    Ariel in graylight, stormy,

    We missed you in the list of the chosen.

    They said it before, they’ll say it again:

    Some of us were made more fortunate people,

    And nothing anywhere is easy.

     

  • 03:40 Lyrics
    More Than Strangers

    Down a long stretch of highway,

    Worn from the storm, weary and lost,

    I was stranded outside with the stars looking my way,

    And with nothing to hide I grew peaceful and calm.

     

    I can feel my heart is changing now,

    I can hear the whole world sing out loud.

    I believe we are more than strangers.

     

    When I was a boy, I was searching for wisdom

    In the words on a page; in the words of my mother

    Who said love doesn’t choose, ‘cause love is the answer

    If we won’t refuse in fear and in shame.

     

    I can feel my heart is changing now,

    I can hear the whole world sing out loud.

    I believe we are more than strangers.

     

    And why should I fear you?

    Why should you fear me?

    Haven’t we suffered this long enough?

    Through countless wars and thousands of lifetimes,

    Together we’re still here.

     

    I can feel my heart is changing now,

    I can hear the whole world sing out loud.

    I believe we are more than strangers.

  • Lyrics Wheels

    She’s suddenly, afterwards, smiling in lieu of running away,

    ‘Cause some of them make you hurt, but some of them love you come what may.

    And out amid the stark light after dawn she longs for home.

    A curious call to arms for those too terrified to roam.

     

    Oh my soul...

    You’ve gotta push it ‘til the wheels come off,

    Have courage even when you’re lost,

    And break the silence, judgments all be damned.

    And I have never known someone like you,

    To be a part of it and still see through

    This veil we’d all be wise to understand.

     

    A burgeoning brand new strand, pair upon pair of letters climb.

    And culminate in an open hand free from the avarice of time.

    My dear I long to hold you in my arms so safe and warm.

    And into the endlessness our chariot surges evermore.

     

    Oh my soul...

    You’ve gotta push it ‘til the wheels come off,

    Have courage even when you’re lost,

    And break the silence, judgments all be damned.

    And I have never known someone like you,

    To be a part of it and still see through

    This veil we’d all be wise to understand.

  • Lyrics Reflection of Beauty

    If we had all of the people surrounded,

    Or maybe chained them all down to the floor,

    We could believe that in strength love is founded and we are much stronger than any before.

    Love is your belief that people change.

    And we can’t give the sun our misfortune, and we can’t pay the rain in regret.

    It’s too late to be sorry for something that everyone always just seems to forget.

    Infected by a hand so close to blame.

     

    Do the words make you high?

    Did I say what matters this time?

    Will time shade your eyes?

    It’s a reflection of beauty, you answer so strong.

    Truth or perception, could we be wrong?

    Haven’t you taken your time?

    We’ve waited so long.

     

    You could swear you were tearing your heart out;

    You could lie and tell me you believe

    In truly sufficient indifference toward all of this destructive insanity.

    Do you think they’d notice? Do you think they’d care?

    And are you so sure your life treads heavy on this earth,

    And in all your finest moments are you who you envisioned?

    Just remember your light.

     

    Do the words make you high?

    Did I say what matters this time?

    Will time shade your eyes?

    It’s a reflection of beauty, you answer so strong.

    Truth or perception, could we be wrong?

    Haven’t you taken your time?

    We’ve drifted so long.

     

    Many a hand as many a feeling, daddy was once a little boy;

    Girls in dance and girls in mourning making way for brighter toys,

    See the faces of the children in lace and flowing gown,

    Shake against the pale of morning, turn your head and then hang it down.

     

    Do the words make you high?

    Did I say what matters this time?

    Will time shade your eyes?

    It’s a reflection of beauty, you answer so strong.

    Truth or perception, could we be wrong?

    Haven’t you taken your time?

    We’ve waited so long.

  • 05:47 Lyrics
    Candlelight Butterflies

    Upon your deciding you would fly,
    the fates stood invisible.
    You offered yourself to pay the price
    and were satisfied.

    Is it better if you don't unravel;
    if the edges never fray?
    A fighting last impression on the way down.
    We make up our excuses for the sake of better days,
    Giggling and weeping on the way down.
    Never you surrender, and the lady find her way,
    leaving every light on on the way down.

    Sipping in the bitterness of time,
    and hailing the moon from all her rest.
    Your dancing was magic on their eyes,
    candlelight butterflies.

    If you shiver at the sunset on the last day of your life,
    I promise I will be there to embrace you.
    Who are we to judge this? Who are we to mind?
    Shedding our discomfort as we break through.
    Sister contemplation, rid me of what blinds;
    Brother compassion, let me see you.

    I want to leave here a better man
    with both of my eyes wide open.
    And with the chains all broken.
    Into an endless ocean.
    Where there is only love,
    there is only love,
    there is only light...

  • Lyrics Wear My Lady Like Sunshine

    The city surrenders what the mountains can’t tame.

    However uneasy the guilty can’t blame.

    You can vanish the voice, but the lips will remain.

    Taste my lady like summer rain.

     

    Don’t you be excited, don’t you squeal and don’t you whine,

    And don’t you lie about crying and rub your eyes ‘til they shine.

    Something so lonely, something so fine.

    Wear my lady like sunshine.

     

    Stupid say that you don’t love and crazy say you care.

    79 times wave your hands up in the air.

    They can see you comin’ kid and they don’t give a damn if you’re scared.

    Chase my lady like she’s really there.

     

    The city surrenders what the mountains can’t tame.

    However uneasy the guilty can’t blame.

    You can vanish the voice, but the lips will remain.

    Taste my lady like summer rain.

  • Lyrics Light Becomes You

    I felt you shiver in the snow

    With beads of moonlight peppered on the road

    The fall had left its fingernail scratches all over the trees,

    And how this tickle in my skin could pull me light years back to thee;

    And the most important moment was when I felt you shiver.

     

    Help me know how to fight

    The fading of the day back into night.

    The beauty of the air outside this visceral cocoon

    Is the illuminated breathing of the cherubim in bloom.

    And I still envision your radiant design.

     

    Light becomes you

    All I see and all I feel

NOTES
This album is available in CD format or in high-quality MP3 format

Mordred the Quarter Known

by Ryan David Orr

Released 06/13/2011
Maiden Druther (self-released)
Released 06/13/2011
Maiden Druther (self-released)
A larger sounding production; more of a rock album. Features fan favorites "Hope & Fire", "Where the World is Waiting for You", "Write it on the Wall", "Woman", and "Carry Me Home". Available in CD format and high-quality MP3 format.
  • 04:21 Lyrics
    If You Want Love

    V1

    You can give up on shouting if you want to.

    Nobody asked you anything.

    You can give up on doubting if it won’t prove

    It’s a matter of trust and listening.

    It’s not in the waiting that you get stuck,

    You’re caught in a fear of moving on.

    You can blame all your loss on luck,

    Or a lack thereof

     

    Ch

    But if you want love, hey, get up from your wasted spaces.

    Don’t say you ain’t got to believe in something.

     

    V2

    The king of confusion sits in his room

    Telling the walls to let him out.

    He doesn’t remember how to get through

    The terrible truth of laying down.

    Out in the world those dreamers will climb,

    To cradle the sun; to let it gleam.

    And up in the tower, angered and numb,

    He won’t hear the cries.

     

    Repeat CH

     

    BR

    It’s so loaded and null; this claim you’re offering.

    Won’t you open the door. Let the sunlight in.

     

  • 03:25 Download Lyrics
    Hope & Fire

    V1

    I bet you could have been big enough if they told you what they all expected.

    Simple faker with the saintly pleading so as not to be rejected.

    Just a little intoxicated by this selfish lie you tell me.

    I could stand upon broken ground if what I found resounded clearly.

     

    CH

    Just then you disappeared inside of all that I am and I know why;

    It’s made of hope and fire, this innocent goodbye.

    We sat beating the bad days back with a wanton attack of the certain and I know why;

    It’s made of hope and fire.

     

    V2

    I bet it might have been perfectly fine were this scribbled line drawn straighter.

    Moving through to be something true is so much better now than later.

    How is it that I spoke so clear and came so near to love sincerely?

    Just to find that this never could be something that would not elude me.

     

    CH

    Just then you disappeared inside of all that I am and I know why;

    It’s made of hope and fire, this innocent goodbye.

    We sat beating the bad days back with a wanton attack of the certain and I know why;

    It’s made of hope and fire.

     

    BR

    I hope I don’t break you down. Break your heart.

    This intent is nothing less than plain and said.

    I live instead for being rid.

  • 03:52 Lyrics
    Where the World is Waiting For You

    V1

    I had to make you up for everyone.

    They never knew. How would you?

    Foolish toys on avenues making noise.

    The picture in the kitchen is not enough.

    We couldn’t touch. With you undone.

    How is one so obvious not the same?

    Not a fraction of it.

     

    Ch

    And out of sullen mouths they scream, “See me!

    And how alone I belong.

    I belong in halls that echo my name.”

    I’m running out into where the world is waiting for you.

     

    V2

    You bothered with disguise and I obliged.

    And I have tried all my life to recognize,

    And clearly hear what truth might fall

    upon an eager dreamer’s yearning ears.

    Waiting for something sweeter; something more than just someone.

    But you were gone. Were you ever really here?

     

    Ch

    And out of sullen mouths they scream, “See me!

    And how alone I belong.

    I belong in halls that echo my name.”

    I’m running out into where the world is waiting for you

     

    Br

    To come to life,

    And drown your lies,

    And rest your eyes,

    But you’re too stuck inside.

     

    Ch

    And out of sullen mouths they scream, “See me!

    And how alone I belong.

    I belong in halls that echo my name.”

    I’m running out into where the world is waiting for you.

  • 04:58 Lyrics
    April, I'm Sure the Stars Understand

    V1

    Like winter’s breath all the shivers come.

    Creeping into her oblivion.

    She wanted to be confident in life and love.

    Believing her patience to be strong enough.

    She throws her hair back out of her face

    To gaze at the lines that her time has made;

    Condemning this reflection she seems sealed in,

    And loathing the façade of all the roles she played.

     

    CH

    I screamed at all the bitter darkness in the world, but the night wind tore my skin.

    I try to tell you what I feel when I’m alone, but the feelings always win.

    I threw my anger to the bottom of the well, but my wishes don’t make sense.

    Everybody looks the same, there’s no distinguishing between my enemies and friends.

     

    V2

    My expectations weren’t unlike yours, baby.

    I see in black and white when it suits me.

    Don’t let them tell you that they aren’t as crazy.

    They fall apart the same as you and me.

    It seems their actions shape all of their belief.

    And they swear by a dull imagination.

    While conceding to be prisoners of destiny,

    They stand for this raw manipulation.

     

    CH

    I screamed at all the bitter darkness in the world, but the night wind tore my skin.

    I try to tell you what I feel when I’m alone, but the feelings always win.

    I threw my anger to the bottom of the well, but my wishes don’t make sense.

    Everybody looks the same, there’s no distinguishing between my enemies and friends.

     

    BR

    But I recognize your innocence; you’re still the same to me.

    After years of disappointment, we are learning to be free.

    May you shine long after we are gone in distant starry skies.

    Hold your head up; you’re alive.

  • 03:52 Download Lyrics
    Carry Me Home

    V1

    I once saw a girl in lavender light,

    Dancing like a dream just ‘cause she could.

    On all the corners of the world, delicate, inseparable,

    The vain and lonely stood.

    Uther left his saber in a stone far away from home

    And tried not to disappear.

    Is anybody listening? Does anybody care?

    Are there those who survive in here?

     

    CH

    Sing us all a song to remember you by.

    Let it ring clearly.

    Tell ‘em that we tried and we couldn’t say why

    The only way we know

    Is difficult now to just let go.

    So steady my head and carry me home.

     

    V2

    Useless little animals fill parking lots and shopping malls

     and can’t stand being sad.

    Hey, can you believe the only thing to set us free

    Will be the loss of what we had?

    I once saw a boy who played with clean and happy toys

    And grew up loving guns,

    ‘Cause all the fathers and the mothers are too angry to love each other,

    And then they teach their sons.

     

    Repeat CH

     

    CH

    Sing us all a song to remember you by.

    Let it ring clearly.

    Tell ‘em we were lost looking for the divine

    If you think that they’ll hear me.

    Tell ‘em that we tried and we couldn’t say why

    The only way we know

    Is difficult now to just let go.

    So steady my head and carry me home.

     

    I once saw a girl in lavender light dancing like a dream just ‘cause she could.

  • Lyrics It's Only You

    V1

    You didn’t lose him, he was outside buying you roses.

    To bring you happiness.

    And he’s cursing the bar as it closes.

    Your head was left a mess.

    Don’t bring your belief into summer,

    ‘Cause it has not happened yet.

    And all you put into the effort

    Is all that you will get.

     

    Ch

    I know I don’t believe it when you tell me that it’s only you

    Trying to be comfortable with everything and everybody.

    Don’t you think that we all get it?

     

    V2

    It wasn’t just another bad thing you couldn’t manage,

    But you have to let this go.

    That love won’t suffer the damage,

    And deep inside you know.

    He rested again on the sidewalk,

    To ask if you recall

    Why you’re crossing your arms and you won’t talk.

    But you’re not there at all.

     

    Ch

    I know I don’t believe it when you tell me that it’s only you

    Trying to be comfortable with everything and everybody.

    Don’t you think that we all get it?

     

    Br

    Hold your promise to the light. Let it shine; see inside.

    Let this never be your life; making circles of your time.

    And you never have to deny that we’re passing a line. You changed my mind.

    And there’s something holding on too fast to not be noticed now.

     

    V3

    He was livid on the drive back to the apartment, ‘cause you’re fake when you get caught.

    And you claim that it’s not of importance, when revenge is all you’ve got.

    Don’t fool yourself into thinking that you’re not just like them all.

    You would do whatever it takes to be powerful and tall.

  • 04:19 Lyrics
    Woman

    V1

    Your skin is all they need to feel so free.

    And, just like me, want you close.

    Your eyes are both for free,

    And waiting for small release. Your spirit knows.

     

    Ch

    At the bottom of this well

    Your greatest wishes fell.

    And settled on the floor.

    And I won’t ever tell.

     

    And all that you are now

    is beautiful and proud. Woman.

     

    V2

    To steal a fragile light

    And drown it out.

    For seasons now, is what we know.

    For fear of our own hands losing wars;

    Losing ground. We hold her down.

     

    Ch

    Hanging from the sky

    The starlight in your eyes.

    That only love can see.

    And no, you don’t need me.

     

    For you stand on your own

    To claim this ancient throne. Woman.

     

  • Lyrics Scream at the Clouds

    V1

    The phone sat idle for eight whole days,

    As we waited for the villain to come out into the sunshine.

    It’s our time; planted from a seed we climb,

    And still we struggle trying to remember

    How did they start this curse?

    You’ve got a lot of belief in words.

    If your children grow up to break your laws,

    Will you tell them they were your only flaws?

    Will you show them how to be saints and gods?

    I don’t believe it’s impossible. It’s not impossible.

     

    CH

    So we scream at the clouds and their silence is all we have.

    We dare ask, but can’t accept that as an answer.

    Oh, my love, I’ll try not to be blind, but I’m so human.

     

    V2

    We walked on taller into the fog,

    Where they shout out your name, but you long forgot.

    And we cringe when his majesty calls his dogs,

    But we’re sure of the silence and don’t get caught.

    I know I don’t need anyone.

    I am the only daughters and only sons.

    I am a million colors and one resolve.

    I am hands wide open and grateful palms.

    And a heart for catching the stars that fall.

    I am one voice offering countless calls.

     

    CH

    So we scream at the clouds and their silence is all we have.

    We dare ask, but can’t accept that as an answer.

    Oh, my love, I cannot pretend that I know what you’re looking for,

    But I won’t waste this time.

  • Lyrics The Ocean I Bleed Before

    He circled ‘round and fell down and his head was swirling.

    Let’s wake him up ‘fore he drowns and get him thinking.

    We’re all obliged to define our belligerence,

    but, oh my God, must we try to make it make sense?

     

    This is just to test out my hypothesis

    that children never get scared of what they didn’t know existed

    I won’t mind if you don’t think about me.

    You do what you need to.   

    I don’t believe to be missed at all.

     

    You’re the scent of the ocean I bleed before.

    You’re nervous in motion for all that I know.

    Your pain is the pain of the open door;

    Easy to accept that you’re not so deceiving.

     

    It was more that I delighted in all you said

    while your tragic little words were overflowing.

    I quit the listen just to see you move instead.

    The bitter stars were envious of your glowing.

    I distracted your attentive focused fear

    just long enough for your perceiving reflection.

    You debated all the thoughts you would not hear.

    Now it’s too real.                            

     

    You’re the scent of the ocean I bleed before.

    You’re nervous in motion for all that I know.

    Your pain is the pain of the open door.

    Easy to accept that you’re not so deceiving.

    You’re the point where the tongue meets the fickle heart.

    You’re the storm of its passion and grief smashing all the walls apart.

    You’re the startle of having just come too far.

    Easy to accept that you’re ever and ever evading awareness.

    And that’s not your problem; it’s just not your thing to be riddled with answers while you could be

    searching.

    I fake resignation to watch you diffuse,

    and content with the calm of your breathing my thoughts sound like

    ha ha ha ha ha……….

  • 02:46 Download Lyrics
    Write it on the Wall

    V1

    Her radiance she made for the king

    Of chipped and broken shells and colors soaked in rose and gasoline.

    For all I might suppose I’d seen,

     

    It was not enough to write it on the wall and be remembered.

    By the light of the fire she surrendered and I don’t mind at all.

     

    V2

    And upon her silver shoes,

    Were the scratches worn from trouble borne and years of being used.

    And for all that I might suppose I’d lose,

     

    It was not enough to write it on the wall and be remembered.

    By the light of the fire she surrendered and I don’t mind at all.

     

    V3

    Her gradients ran gray to green.

    Where what mattered more would not adore her cynical esteem.

    And for all they might suppose they’d seen.

     

    It was not enough to write it on the wall and be remembered.

    By the light of the fire she surrendered and I don’t mind at all.

     

  • Lyrics Butterfly

    V1

    You had your promise to believe in.

    Though, you may have told your love he’d better be careful,

    I can’t fake this; it isn’t me.

    I sat up all night trying desperately

    To find excuses for why I should just go,

    But I can’t fake this; it isn’t me.

    There’s something sinister in my reflection,

    Taunting stronger parts of me and waiting,

    But I can’t fake this; it isn’t me.

    I know I had as much as you to do with what we talked about in letters.

    Bittersweet, but I can’t fake this; it isn’t me.

     

    CH

    So goodnight, butterfly.

    Hold this hand when you cry.

    I know you tried. We will rise.

    We will shine. I bless your light, for all your life.

     

    V2

    We can write everything down and send it,

    Wishing we were close enough and wanting to be satisfied.

    We can fool each other so completely,

    And never see the anguish there, hidden in a stare in both our eyes.

    If you want, I could find pictures of us happy in the clouds,

    And sketch it down and let it blow away.

    But it’s not the same now and you know it,

    And I think it’s hard enough without attempting to see you this way.

     

    CH

    So goodnight, butterfly.

    Hold this hand when you cry.

    I know you tried. We will rise.

    We will shine. I bless your light, for all your life.

     

Vermilion

by Ryan David Orr

Released 07/07/2008
Maiden Druther (self-released)
Released 07/07/2008
Maiden Druther (self-released)
A rootsy folk-rock album with elements of folk, country, alt-country, and indie. Features fan favorites "Perfectly Fine", "Bottle Rocket", "Past the Gate", "Snow Globe Ballerina", and "The Merciless Queen of the 41 Bound". Available in both CD and MP3 Format.

My Fair February Notable Shimmer & Grin

by Ryan David Orr

Released 2007
Maiden Druther (self-released)
Released 2007
Maiden Druther (self-released)
Named "Best Folk Album International" by Toronto Exclusive Magazine, this album is an adventure in folk singer/songwriter-land. Features fan favorites "Delight and Disappear", "How Like the Rain", "Julietta", and "A Simple Song". Available in MP3 format.