Ryan David Orr

kopascetic

by Ryan David Orr

Released 06/13/2016
Maiden Druther
Released 06/13/2016
Maiden Druther
Now available in CD and 12" vinyl format!
  • 03:19 Download Lyrics
    Traffic Lights

    And again she shows up, later than she thought she would, knocking reticently soft.

    As she speaks she is trying not to cry and I help her as she's taking her coat off

    "Nothing is beautiful," she said, "and no one is ever who they seem. I drove around this town for hours, screaming curses at the road, but it's 10 o'clock and the church is closed, and I stopped and sat amongst the flowers."

    And I don't give a damn if they call the cops;

    They never do anything anywhere anyway.

    I try to stay on a straight line home.

    She said, "Do you want to touch me? You want to be close? You want to feel something that seems real? Well I just want to feel whole; I want to be golden. I should go."

    It's alright. I'll walk home tonight. Gonna skip all the traffic lights.

    And again I show up drunk and stumbling, and make my way to the front door.

    I have always loved more than I have ever shown with my hands and I can't give her what she asked for.

    But she humors me and lets me in. I said, "I don't know where I've been. I wandered up and down the highway. I stopped at that store across the Deuce and bought some cigarettes and booze and the clerk was staring at me sideways."

    And I don't give a damn if they call the cops.

    They never do anything anywhere anyway.

    I try to stay on a straight line home.

    I said, "Do you want to touch me? You want to be close? You want to feel something that seems real? Well, I just want to feel whole. I want to be golden. I should go."

    It's alright. I'll walk home tonight. Gonna skip all the traffic lights.

  • 04:03 Lyrics
    Mississippi

    I took a closer look and I could not find them. Mississippi delta in late July and

    Angela was certainly not the first one. This is not a date if you won't take my hand.

    Somebody remembered the holes in the ozone. Took a bag of clothes and a hand full of NoDoze.

    I never went to sleep, but I don't mind dreaming.

    This is just a shot, sugar, so don't you put your money on me. This is just a shot, sugar, so don't you worry 'bout it no more.

    Seventeen bails of backlog levis, bundled up snug in a mess of hair ties.

    The sweetest of the children here grew up angry.

    This is just a shot, sugar, so don't you put your money on me. This is just a shot, sugar, so don't you worry 'bout it no more.

    Heaven wasn't close enough; I had to pull the clouds right down.

  • 03:13 Lyrics
    Fleeting Heart

    Blessed be, Cornelia, all of the beauty's not gone from the world.

    All these weeping boys and girls in their fragile little worlds.

    The ugly shell still hides a pearl.

    And we cannot be reckless and also give in. Mother, we're animals.

    Casting off our only virtue, when we think we wouldn't hurt you.

    And become all the things that we ought not revert to

    and on some sacred spectacular day when no one says anything,

    we'll recall why we were silent, finding calm within the violence and a place to hide our anger.

    And if they ask you to be honest, will you pretend you'd never lie? Would you unravel right before their very eyes? There is a sweetness in the longing, something so mournful there in love, and it's the fleeting heart you're always dreaming of.

    You open this letter last, just before bed, every day for fifteen years.

    But with no remaining tears, and you still can strain to hear

    his voice as your train disappeared.

    And the station stopped humming with casual talk and the world was as it had been:

    full of enemies and friends, full of cold indifference, full of saints that grew up sinners.

    And if they ask you to be honest, will you pretend you'd never lie? Would you unravel right before their very eyes? There is a sweetness in the longing, something so mournful there in love, and it's the fleeting heart you're always dreaming of.

  • 02:27 Lyrics
    Sleepy Bougainvillea

    Did you want to ask me something?

    Did you want to say your part?

    Did you have some realization?

    Is it too long far apart?

    This is only sounding good 'cause I've been drinking; this is only new 'cause I've been lost. This is only real 'cause I've been thinking, seeking joy whatever my joy may cost.

    Lady on this alter, where is your room?

    Are there those who might oblige your glorious gloom?

    I don't want to tell you that I can't take this; I don't want to see you turn away. I don't want to feel alone and foolish wondering what I could do to make you stay.

    Near a sleepy bougainvillea, wrapped in linen and silk,

    She is disappearing endlessly and calling me still.

    Left between your heart and something secret; choosing when to hear you laughing at me; I resolve to never ever need this. The truth is, I must walk away and let this be.

    (I don't need this more than I can struggle to be free of wanting you)

  • 03:34
    On a Day in the Life of a Man Who Dreams
  • Lyrics Breaker

    Straight down the rain will fall to soak your woolen, winter shall. Through the door and down the hall I'm all alone, all alone and dry.

    I missed out. The afternoon was bored with me and gone too soon. Don't you shout at me, dear moon. I know not why we cry. I know not why we cry.

    The lost now stand around and blame, pointing fingers and cursing names, crippled by their fear and shame with no idea why. No idea why.

    I learned best from mistakes I made. Perfect people will never change. You can't see inside my brain and you don't know what I've felt. Go be perfect somewhere else.

    Somewhere out beyond the breaker, she struggles with her maker, and all of the waves lay down.

    I would've said words that you never even heard, that you never even knew you deserved.

    Somewhere out beyond the breaker, she struggles with her maker, and all of the waves lay down.

  • 04:14 Lyrics
    How Strong Can You Be

    So when they get sick of you calling, and they just don't care if you're falling fast.

    When all of those eyes are on you and the weight of it rests upon your back.

    You slam the door hard as you run to your car and collapse.

    And you never go fast enough to leave what has passed you in the past.

    And they're pointing their fingers and rolling their eyes, making your struggle seem trite. Gushing with laughter and eloquent sighs; you don't want to break but you might.

    And you won't let them in, and you won't let them see. Well, then how strong can you be?

    When you look upon all your devices and you stop telling lies are you twice as scared?

    'Cause everyone's sure they're honest and everyone's certain they're aware.

    As they stumble and stagger like blind drunken fools down the stairs,

    Waking up all of the neighbors and shouting about their selfish cares.

    And they're pointing their fingers and rolling their eyes, making your struggle seem trite. Gushing with laughter and eloquent sighs; you don't want to break but you might.

    And you won't let them in, and you won't let them see these moments when there's not a thing to believe in and all your decision are thrown in your face and everything's scattered and it seems out of place. And the only light visible is hazily streaming through cracks in the walls that you made.

    And you won't let them in, and you won't let them see. Well, then how strong can you be?

  • 05:08 Lyrics
    Recognize You

    Howl loud and they'll know it's you. Screamin' 'bout all your bedroom blues with your curtains down, waking up the whole town.

    Give her one kiss for the trouble now, two to keep her close enough to wonder: is it a blunder? A thousand bolts of lightning with no thunder.

    But quit your crying, now. You will not escape this noise. Ruining all the sentimental, sad, and silly boys.

    We built this city on rock n' roll and we never explain our lies. We fool ourselves about ourselves and can't look you in the eyes.

    And you stand up, holding your hands up and throwing your voice, and no one can remember your name. You just laugh when your nervous 'cause they're all annoyed. And you can't remember why came. Just put on your mask and your elegant garments so that you won't recognize you. You won't recognize you any more than we do.

    Turn around and get out of here. We don't owe you a god damn thing so just disappear. It's clear that you're not listening.

    You seem bolder than you need to be with the hair up on your back. Fighting to be bigger than all the qualities you lack.

    Well, yes, we've all seen better days, we've all seen better days. Ruining all your sentimental, sad, and silly ways.

    But then, low and behold, the front's not old; a shiny new façade. All these scattered ants and animals all trying to be God.

    And you stand up, holding your hands up and throwing your voice, and no one can remember your name. You just laugh when your nervous 'cause they're all annoyed. And you can't remember why came. Just put on your mask and your elegant garments so that you won't recognize you. You won't recognize you.

    This stripped down notion, like an opening hand that begs "More, more, more, I need all you can handle". With your big mouth flapping out your terrible plan to be the best thing that ever ever ever ever happened...

    And you stand up, holding your hands up and throwing your voice, and no one can remember your name. You just laugh when your nervous 'cause they're all annoyed. And you can't remember why came. Just put on your mask and your elegant garments so that you won't recognize you. You won't recognize you.

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