Ryan David Orr

Mordred the Quarter Known

by Ryan David Orr

Released 06/13/2011
Maiden Druther (self-released)
Released 06/13/2011
Maiden Druther (self-released)
A larger sounding production; more of a rock album. Features fan favorites "Hope & Fire", "Where the World is Waiting for You", "Write it on the Wall", "Woman", and "Carry Me Home". Available in CD format and high-quality MP3 format.
  • 04:21 Lyrics
    If You Want Love

    V1

    You can give up on shouting if you want to.

    Nobody asked you anything.

    You can give up on doubting if it won’t prove

    It’s a matter of trust and listening.

    It’s not in the waiting that you get stuck,

    You’re caught in a fear of moving on.

    You can blame all your loss on luck,

    Or a lack thereof

     

    Ch

    But if you want love, hey, get up from your wasted spaces.

    Don’t say you ain’t got to believe in something.

     

    V2

    The king of confusion sits in his room

    Telling the walls to let him out.

    He doesn’t remember how to get through

    The terrible truth of laying down.

    Out in the world those dreamers will climb,

    To cradle the sun; to let it gleam.

    And up in the tower, angered and numb,

    He won’t hear the cries.

     

    Repeat CH

     

    BR

    It’s so loaded and null; this claim you’re offering.

    Won’t you open the door. Let the sunlight in.

     

  • 03:25 Download Lyrics
    Hope & Fire

    V1

    I bet you could have been big enough if they told you what they all expected.

    Simple faker with the saintly pleading so as not to be rejected.

    Just a little intoxicated by this selfish lie you tell me.

    I could stand upon broken ground if what I found resounded clearly.

     

    CH

    Just then you disappeared inside of all that I am and I know why;

    It’s made of hope and fire, this innocent goodbye.

    We sat beating the bad days back with a wanton attack of the certain and I know why;

    It’s made of hope and fire.

     

    V2

    I bet it might have been perfectly fine were this scribbled line drawn straighter.

    Moving through to be something true is so much better now than later.

    How is it that I spoke so clear and came so near to love sincerely?

    Just to find that this never could be something that would not elude me.

     

    CH

    Just then you disappeared inside of all that I am and I know why;

    It’s made of hope and fire, this innocent goodbye.

    We sat beating the bad days back with a wanton attack of the certain and I know why;

    It’s made of hope and fire.

     

    BR

    I hope I don’t break you down. Break your heart.

    This intent is nothing less than plain and said.

    I live instead for being rid.

  • 03:52 Lyrics
    Where the World is Waiting For You

    V1

    I had to make you up for everyone.

    They never knew. How would you?

    Foolish toys on avenues making noise.

    The picture in the kitchen is not enough.

    We couldn’t touch. With you undone.

    How is one so obvious not the same?

    Not a fraction of it.

     

    Ch

    And out of sullen mouths they scream, “See me!

    And how alone I belong.

    I belong in halls that echo my name.”

    I’m running out into where the world is waiting for you.

     

    V2

    You bothered with disguise and I obliged.

    And I have tried all my life to recognize,

    And clearly hear what truth might fall

    upon an eager dreamer’s yearning ears.

    Waiting for something sweeter; something more than just someone.

    But you were gone. Were you ever really here?

     

    Ch

    And out of sullen mouths they scream, “See me!

    And how alone I belong.

    I belong in halls that echo my name.”

    I’m running out into where the world is waiting for you

     

    Br

    To come to life,

    And drown your lies,

    And rest your eyes,

    But you’re too stuck inside.

     

    Ch

    And out of sullen mouths they scream, “See me!

    And how alone I belong.

    I belong in halls that echo my name.”

    I’m running out into where the world is waiting for you.

  • 04:58 Lyrics
    April, I'm Sure the Stars Understand

    V1

    Like winter’s breath all the shivers come.

    Creeping into her oblivion.

    She wanted to be confident in life and love.

    Believing her patience to be strong enough.

    She throws her hair back out of her face

    To gaze at the lines that her time has made;

    Condemning this reflection she seems sealed in,

    And loathing the façade of all the roles she played.

     

    CH

    I screamed at all the bitter darkness in the world, but the night wind tore my skin.

    I try to tell you what I feel when I’m alone, but the feelings always win.

    I threw my anger to the bottom of the well, but my wishes don’t make sense.

    Everybody looks the same, there’s no distinguishing between my enemies and friends.

     

    V2

    My expectations weren’t unlike yours, baby.

    I see in black and white when it suits me.

    Don’t let them tell you that they aren’t as crazy.

    They fall apart the same as you and me.

    It seems their actions shape all of their belief.

    And they swear by a dull imagination.

    While conceding to be prisoners of destiny,

    They stand for this raw manipulation.

     

    CH

    I screamed at all the bitter darkness in the world, but the night wind tore my skin.

    I try to tell you what I feel when I’m alone, but the feelings always win.

    I threw my anger to the bottom of the well, but my wishes don’t make sense.

    Everybody looks the same, there’s no distinguishing between my enemies and friends.

     

    BR

    But I recognize your innocence; you’re still the same to me.

    After years of disappointment, we are learning to be free.

    May you shine long after we are gone in distant starry skies.

    Hold your head up; you’re alive.

  • 03:52 Download Lyrics
    Carry Me Home

    V1

    I once saw a girl in lavender light,

    Dancing like a dream just ‘cause she could.

    On all the corners of the world, delicate, inseparable,

    The vain and lonely stood.

    Uther left his saber in a stone far away from home

    And tried not to disappear.

    Is anybody listening? Does anybody care?

    Are there those who survive in here?

     

    CH

    Sing us all a song to remember you by.

    Let it ring clearly.

    Tell ‘em that we tried and we couldn’t say why

    The only way we know

    Is difficult now to just let go.

    So steady my head and carry me home.

     

    V2

    Useless little animals fill parking lots and shopping malls

     and can’t stand being sad.

    Hey, can you believe the only thing to set us free

    Will be the loss of what we had?

    I once saw a boy who played with clean and happy toys

    And grew up loving guns,

    ‘Cause all the fathers and the mothers are too angry to love each other,

    And then they teach their sons.

     

    Repeat CH

     

    CH

    Sing us all a song to remember you by.

    Let it ring clearly.

    Tell ‘em we were lost looking for the divine

    If you think that they’ll hear me.

    Tell ‘em that we tried and we couldn’t say why

    The only way we know

    Is difficult now to just let go.

    So steady my head and carry me home.

     

    I once saw a girl in lavender light dancing like a dream just ‘cause she could.

  • Lyrics It's Only You

    V1

    You didn’t lose him, he was outside buying you roses.

    To bring you happiness.

    And he’s cursing the bar as it closes.

    Your head was left a mess.

    Don’t bring your belief into summer,

    ‘Cause it has not happened yet.

    And all you put into the effort

    Is all that you will get.

     

    Ch

    I know I don’t believe it when you tell me that it’s only you

    Trying to be comfortable with everything and everybody.

    Don’t you think that we all get it?

     

    V2

    It wasn’t just another bad thing you couldn’t manage,

    But you have to let this go.

    That love won’t suffer the damage,

    And deep inside you know.

    He rested again on the sidewalk,

    To ask if you recall

    Why you’re crossing your arms and you won’t talk.

    But you’re not there at all.

     

    Ch

    I know I don’t believe it when you tell me that it’s only you

    Trying to be comfortable with everything and everybody.

    Don’t you think that we all get it?

     

    Br

    Hold your promise to the light. Let it shine; see inside.

    Let this never be your life; making circles of your time.

    And you never have to deny that we’re passing a line. You changed my mind.

    And there’s something holding on too fast to not be noticed now.

     

    V3

    He was livid on the drive back to the apartment, ‘cause you’re fake when you get caught.

    And you claim that it’s not of importance, when revenge is all you’ve got.

    Don’t fool yourself into thinking that you’re not just like them all.

    You would do whatever it takes to be powerful and tall.

  • 04:19 Lyrics
    Woman

    V1

    Your skin is all they need to feel so free.

    And, just like me, want you close.

    Your eyes are both for free,

    And waiting for small release. Your spirit knows.

     

    Ch

    At the bottom of this well

    Your greatest wishes fell.

    And settled on the floor.

    And I won’t ever tell.

     

    And all that you are now

    is beautiful and proud. Woman.

     

    V2

    To steal a fragile light

    And drown it out.

    For seasons now, is what we know.

    For fear of our own hands losing wars;

    Losing ground. We hold her down.

     

    Ch

    Hanging from the sky

    The starlight in your eyes.

    That only love can see.

    And no, you don’t need me.

     

    For you stand on your own

    To claim this ancient throne. Woman.

     

  • Lyrics Scream at the Clouds

    V1

    The phone sat idle for eight whole days,

    As we waited for the villain to come out into the sunshine.

    It’s our time; planted from a seed we climb,

    And still we struggle trying to remember

    How did they start this curse?

    You’ve got a lot of belief in words.

    If your children grow up to break your laws,

    Will you tell them they were your only flaws?

    Will you show them how to be saints and gods?

    I don’t believe it’s impossible. It’s not impossible.

     

    CH

    So we scream at the clouds and their silence is all we have.

    We dare ask, but can’t accept that as an answer.

    Oh, my love, I’ll try not to be blind, but I’m so human.

     

    V2

    We walked on taller into the fog,

    Where they shout out your name, but you long forgot.

    And we cringe when his majesty calls his dogs,

    But we’re sure of the silence and don’t get caught.

    I know I don’t need anyone.

    I am the only daughters and only sons.

    I am a million colors and one resolve.

    I am hands wide open and grateful palms.

    And a heart for catching the stars that fall.

    I am one voice offering countless calls.

     

    CH

    So we scream at the clouds and their silence is all we have.

    We dare ask, but can’t accept that as an answer.

    Oh, my love, I cannot pretend that I know what you’re looking for,

    But I won’t waste this time.

  • Lyrics The Ocean I Bleed Before

    He circled ‘round and fell down and his head was swirling.

    Let’s wake him up ‘fore he drowns and get him thinking.

    We’re all obliged to define our belligerence,

    but, oh my God, must we try to make it make sense?

     

    This is just to test out my hypothesis

    that children never get scared of what they didn’t know existed

    I won’t mind if you don’t think about me.

    You do what you need to.   

    I don’t believe to be missed at all.

     

    You’re the scent of the ocean I bleed before.

    You’re nervous in motion for all that I know.

    Your pain is the pain of the open door;

    Easy to accept that you’re not so deceiving.

     

    It was more that I delighted in all you said

    while your tragic little words were overflowing.

    I quit the listen just to see you move instead.

    The bitter stars were envious of your glowing.

    I distracted your attentive focused fear

    just long enough for your perceiving reflection.

    You debated all the thoughts you would not hear.

    Now it’s too real.                            

     

    You’re the scent of the ocean I bleed before.

    You’re nervous in motion for all that I know.

    Your pain is the pain of the open door.

    Easy to accept that you’re not so deceiving.

    You’re the point where the tongue meets the fickle heart.

    You’re the storm of its passion and grief smashing all the walls apart.

    You’re the startle of having just come too far.

    Easy to accept that you’re ever and ever evading awareness.

    And that’s not your problem; it’s just not your thing to be riddled with answers while you could be

    searching.

    I fake resignation to watch you diffuse,

    and content with the calm of your breathing my thoughts sound like

    ha ha ha ha ha……….

  • 02:46 Download Lyrics
    Write it on the Wall

    V1

    Her radiance she made for the king

    Of chipped and broken shells and colors soaked in rose and gasoline.

    For all I might suppose I’d seen,

     

    It was not enough to write it on the wall and be remembered.

    By the light of the fire she surrendered and I don’t mind at all.

     

    V2

    And upon her silver shoes,

    Were the scratches worn from trouble borne and years of being used.

    And for all that I might suppose I’d lose,

     

    It was not enough to write it on the wall and be remembered.

    By the light of the fire she surrendered and I don’t mind at all.

     

    V3

    Her gradients ran gray to green.

    Where what mattered more would not adore her cynical esteem.

    And for all they might suppose they’d seen.

     

    It was not enough to write it on the wall and be remembered.

    By the light of the fire she surrendered and I don’t mind at all.

     

  • Lyrics Butterfly

    V1

    You had your promise to believe in.

    Though, you may have told your love he’d better be careful,

    I can’t fake this; it isn’t me.

    I sat up all night trying desperately

    To find excuses for why I should just go,

    But I can’t fake this; it isn’t me.

    There’s something sinister in my reflection,

    Taunting stronger parts of me and waiting,

    But I can’t fake this; it isn’t me.

    I know I had as much as you to do with what we talked about in letters.

    Bittersweet, but I can’t fake this; it isn’t me.

     

    CH

    So goodnight, butterfly.

    Hold this hand when you cry.

    I know you tried. We will rise.

    We will shine. I bless your light, for all your life.

     

    V2

    We can write everything down and send it,

    Wishing we were close enough and wanting to be satisfied.

    We can fool each other so completely,

    And never see the anguish there, hidden in a stare in both our eyes.

    If you want, I could find pictures of us happy in the clouds,

    And sketch it down and let it blow away.

    But it’s not the same now and you know it,

    And I think it’s hard enough without attempting to see you this way.

     

    CH

    So goodnight, butterfly.

    Hold this hand when you cry.

    I know you tried. We will rise.

    We will shine. I bless your light, for all your life.